I was at a low point of my life, when I realized I wasn’t going to be able to make the team for soccer in college. I felt like I lost my identity. I felt as if I had wasted all the years I spent trying to build myself to be fast, to be the best I could be physically and mentally. I felt like I lost who I was. It was almost as if I was blind, trying to find my way through something I never had to experience before. It was hard not to blame God. I wondered why this was happening to me. Why wasn’t I able to reach what I thought was my dream?
In adoration on a Friday morning, I was praying and asking God why I wasn’t able to play. I kept coming back to the word “trust”. I realized that maybe I wasn’t supposed to play soccer. I had to let go of something that, for years, I had focused solely on, accepting the future isn’t possible without God. My own personal goal was blinding me to the fact that God wanted me to be able to get through college with a more open schedule. Looking back, my grades definitely appreciated the extra time to study.
Today’s Gospel really puts into perspective how trusting in God allows Him to work miracles in our lives. Just like the blind man, we are sinners who are sometimes blind to the will of God. Let us ask God for the grace to let go of our own personal wishes and trust that He will heal us and give us a plan that is good to Him.
Estaba en un punto bajo de mi vida, cuando me di cuenta de que no iba a poder entrar al equipo de fútbol de la universidad. Sentí que había perdido mi identidad. Sentí que había desperdiciado todos los años que pasé tratando de desarrollarme para ser rápido, para ser lo mejor que podía ser física y mentalmente. Sentí que había perdido quién era. Era casi como si estuviera ciego, tratando de encontrar mi camino a través de algo que nunca antes había tenido que experimentar. Era difícil no culpar a Dios. Me preguntaba por qué me estaba pasando esto. ¿Por qué no podía alcanzar lo que creía que era mi sueño?
En adoración un viernes por la mañana, estaba orando y preguntándole a Dios por qué no podía jugar. Seguía volviendo a la palabra “confiar”. Me di cuenta de que tal vez no era su plan que jugara al fútbol. Tenía que soltar algo en lo que, durante años, me había centrado únicamente, aceptando que el futuro no es posible sin Dios. Mi objetivo personal me estaba cegando ante el hecho de que Dios quería que pudiera terminar la universidad con un horario más libre. Mirando hacia atrás, mis calificaciones definitivamente agradecieron el tiempo adicional para estudiar.
El Evangelio de hoy realmente pone en perspectiva cómo confiar en Dios le permite obrar milagros en nuestras vidas. Al igual que el hombre ciego, somos pecadores que a veces somos ciegos a la voluntad de Dios. Pidamos a Dios la gracia de dejar de lado nuestros propios deseos personales y confiar en que Él nos sanará y nos dará un plan que sea bueno para Él.
Ben Hooper is originally from Maryland, having been adopted from Korea and growing up in the Catholic faith. He went to Franciscan University to dive deeper into his faith and eventually graduated with a degree in Business Management. He loves musical theater, sports, spending time with his fiancé Lily and their dog Kolbe.
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