Need Renewal? Find Your “Deserted Place” Today / ¿Buscas Renovarte? Encuentra Hoy Tu “Lugar Desierto”

At daybreak, Jesus left and went to a deserted place.

In today’s Gospel reading, we enter into just one of Jesus’ “days.” He had been teaching and healing non-stop for 24 hours at least. After he had left the synagogue [before today’s reading picks up], he went to Peter’s house, where he was asked to heal Peter’s mother-in-law who lay in bed with a severe fever. Jesus rebuked the fever and she immediately got up “and waited on them.” I imagine that meant cooking dinner, giving Jesus a bit of refreshment near the end of a busy day. 

However, at sunset the house began to crowd with endless people pleading throughout the night for healing and hope. And now at daybreak, “Jesus left and went to a deserted place.” These are the words that are used in the Gospel of Luke to introduce the hours of solitude in which Jesus would be alone with his Father in prayer. These words are never used to indicate that Jesus was taking a break. He didn’t leave to escape the noise and demands of the crowds who needed him, but to reconnect with the Source of his Life, the Fire of Love that burned within him, his purpose, his desire. His great need was to stay in communion with the Father, and it was from this communion that he gained the strength and energy to give, to serve, to love, and eventually to lay down his life.

Saint John Paul II seemed to get his cue from Jesus himself. He received his drive, and his purpose, from prayer. The Pope’s schedule, according to Andreas Widmer, author of the book The Pope & the CEO: John Paul II’s Leadership Lessons to a Young Swiss Guard, ran something like this: The Pope rose before 6:00 and prayed in his private chapel before visitors joined him for Mass at 7:00. After Mass and an hour or two in the office, he would greet official visitors at 11:00, and then give his general audiences which were followed by lunch where he was joined by various Vatican staff. His lunches were the opportunity for him to be brought up to speed on what was happening in the various offices of the Vatican. Often he invited guests specifically to engage in a vigorous discussion on various theological or philosophical issues that concerned the life of the Church. After lunch, the Pope headed for the rooftop gardens of the Papal Palace to walk and talk with God. After this time of quiet prayer and rest, there were several hours of office work and more audiences until dinner at 8:00 where guests dined with him once more. After dinner he returned to reading and writing and praying well into the night, only turning out his lights at midnight or even later. We can imagine that this was a leisurely schedule compared to his schedule while traveling.

Widmer recalls that when John Paul II returned after being weeks on the road he didn’t head straight for his own apartment and collapse for a few days in exhaustion. As he arrived at the Vatican, he would stop and greet all the staff who had gathered to welcome him home and inspect the Swiss Guard lined up in honor formation, talking to each one and shaking their hands.

Widmer, who was a twenty-year-old Swiss Guard at the time and who was, like his fellow guards, in peak physical condition, describes how the young Swiss Guards were unable to keep up with the energy level of Saint John Paul II. He shared in his book how he tried to remember even once when he saw that schedule taking a toll on the pope. He couldn’t remember John Paul II ever exhausted, bleary-eyed, burnt out, irritated. The Swiss Guards who traveled with him on those trips were 40, 50, 60 years his junior, yet they returned home exhausted. The Pope instead was filled with energy and ready to pour himself out for others.

Just like Jesus, just like Saint John Paul II, each of us has a mission in life. Each of us have demands, are busy, have an overcrowded schedule. Each of us must deal with the rapid force of endless change and the fear of the uncertainty of what is right around the corner, the endless unknowns that could upset our life. Each of us is called in our vocation to pour ourselves out in response to whatever God asks of us.

Take your cue from Jesus today. Find your “deserted place” to recharge, regroup, renew. You may be able to stay there for moments, or it may be hours. You may find your deserted place in the car on a long commute or at night when the house has grown silent and all your family members are sleeping. Wherever it is and for whatever length of time you are able to be there, cherish your “deserted place” to commune with your God who will renew your energy, return your joy, and recharge your purpose in life.

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Al día siguiente se fue a un lugar solitario.

En la lectura del Evangelio de hoy, entramos en solo uno de los “días” de Jesús. Había estado enseñando y sanando sin parar durante al menos 24 horas. Después de haber salido de la sinagoga [antes de que comience la lectura de hoy], fue a la casa de Pedro, donde se le pidió que curara a su suegra, que estaba en cama con mucha fiebre. Jesús reprendió la fiebre y ella inmediatamente se levantó “y se puso a servirles”. Me imagino que eso significaba preparar la cena, darle a Jesús un poco de refrigerio cerca del final de un día ajetreado.

Sin embargo, al atardecer la casa comenzó a llenarse con un sinfín de personas suplicando durante toda la noche por sanidad y esperanza. Y ahora, al amanecer, “Jesús partió y se fue a un lugar desierto”. Estas son las palabras que se utilizan en el Evangelio de Lucas para introducir las horas de soledad en las que Jesús estaría a solas con su Padre en oración. Estas palabras nunca se usan para indicar que Jesús estaba tomando un descanso. No partió para escapar del ruido y las demandas de las multitudes que lo necesitaban, sino para reconectarse con la Fuente de su Vida, el Fuego del Amor que ardía dentro de él, su propósito, su deseo. Su gran necesidad era permanecer en comunión con el Padre, y de esta comunión obtuvo la fuerza y ​​la energía para dar, servir, amar y, finalmente, dar su vida.

San Juan Pablo II pareció entender el ejemplo del mismo Jesús. Recibió su impulso y su propósito de la oración. El horario del Papa, según Andreas Widmer, autor del libro The Pope & the CEO: John Paul II’s Leadership Lessons to a Young Swiss Guard, (El Papa y el CEO: Lecciones de Liderazgo de Juan Pablo II) para una joven Guardia Suizaera más o menos así: el Papa se levantaba antes de las 6:00 y rezaba en su capilla privada ante los visitantes, se unió a él para la Misa a las 7:00. Después de la Misa y una hora o dos en la oficina, saludaba a los visitantes oficiales a las 11:00 y luego daba sus audiencias generales seguidas de un almuerzo donde se le unían varios miembros del personal del Vaticano. Sus almuerzos fueron la oportunidad para que él se pusiera al día sobre lo que estaba sucediendo en las distintas oficinas del Vaticano. A menudo invitaba a los invitados específicamente a participar en una discusión vigorosa sobre varios temas teológicos o filosóficos que se relacionaban con la vida de la Iglesia. Después del almuerzo, el Papa se dirigió a los jardines de la azotea del Palacio Papal para caminar y hablar con Dios. Después de este tiempo de oración tranquila y descanso, hubo varias horas de trabajo de oficina y más audiencias hasta la cena a las 8:00 donde los invitados cenaron con él una vez más. Después de la cena, volvió a leer, escribir y orar hasta bien noche, y solo apagaba las luces a medianoche o incluso más tarde. Podemos imaginar que este era un horario pausado en comparación con su horario mientras viajaba.

Widmer recuerda que cuando Juan Pablo II regresaba después de estar de viaje por unas semanas, no se dirigía directamente a su propio apartamento a derrumbarse durante unos días por el agotamiento. Cuando llegaba al Vaticano, se detenía y saludaba a todo el personal que se había reunido para darle la bienvenida a casa e inspeccionaba a la Guardia Suiza en formación de honor, hablando con cada uno y dándoles la mano.

Widmer, que en ese momento era un guardia suizo de veinte años y que, al igual que sus compañeros de guardia, estaba en óptimas condiciones físicas, describe cómo los jóvenes guardias suizos no pudieron mantenerse al día con el nivel de energía de San Juan Pablo II. Compartió en su libro cómo trató de recordar incluso una vez cuando vio que ese horario le estaba afectaba al Papa. No podía recordar a Juan Pablo II alguna vez exhausto, con ojos llorosos, quemado, irritado. Los guardias suizos que viajaron con él en esos viajes eran 40, 50, 60 años menores que él, pero regresaron a casa exhaustos. El Papa, en cambio, estaba lleno de energía y dispuesto a entregarse por los demás.

Como Jesús, como San Juan Pablo II, cada uno de nosotros tiene una misión en la vida. Cada uno de nosotros tiene demandas, está ocupado, tiene un horario abarrotado. Cada uno de nosotros debe lidiar con la fuerza rápida del cambio sin fin y el miedo a la incertidumbre de lo que está a la vuelta de la esquina, las incógnitas infinitas que podrían trastornar nuestra vida. Cada uno de nosotros está llamado en nuestra vocación a entregarse en respuesta a lo que Dios nos pide.

Siga el ejemplo de Jesús hoy. Encuentra tu “lugar desierto” para recargar, reagrupar, renovar. Es posible que pueda permanecer allí por momentos, o pueden ser horas. Puede encontrar su lugar desierto en el automóvil en un viaje largo o por la noche cuando la casa se ha vuelto silenciosa y todos los miembros de su familia están durmiendo. Dondequiera que sea y durante el tiempo que puedas estar allí, atesora tu “lugar desierto” para comunicarte con tu Dios, quien renovará tu energía, te devolverá la alegría y recargará tu propósito en la vida.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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Feast of the Assumption: Slip your hand into Mary’s hand / Fiesta de la Asunción: Pon Tu Mano Dentro de la Mano de María

My mother is in the final stages of Alzheimer’s. In the lovely summer weather this year, she and dad have spent a couple of hours every afternoon sitting outside in the lovely garden where she lives. Listening to the birds, watching the squirrels play, and enjoying the flowers and trees has always been a blessed way for mom to spend her leisure moments, particularly in these last fifteen years. I am so grateful to God that my parents have had this very special final year together.

Even as the whole family has found a new and blessed rhythm of being with mom and surrounding her with love and experiences of beauty that are familiar to her on this earth, we all know that this will probably be the last summer that we will have this gift. 

I find my comfort in the Feast of Mary we celebrate today, Mary’s Assumption into heaven. The Collect prayer for today’s Mass lifts our minds and our hearts: 

O God, who, looking on the lowliness of the Blessed Virgin Mary,
raised her to this grace,
that your Only Begotten Son was born of her according to the flesh
and that she was crowned this day with surpassing glory,
grant through her prayers,
that, saved by the mystery of your redemption,
we may merit to be exalted by you on high.

Heaven is the final goal.

Even as we enjoy with mom these precious moments in the beauty of nature, the glory of creation, I remember that heaven is the final goal. From the moment of his glorious rising from the dead, Jesus has been lifting up our hearts, lifting them up above this earth, above this place of exile, above this vale of tears. He rose from the dead. He ascended into heaven. The Spirit descended upon the apostles in the Cenacle. And today we celebrate the assumption of Mary into heaven.

On this day we celebrate the Immaculate Mother of God, the ever virgin Mary, who having completed the course of her earthly life, was assumed body and soul into heavenly glory (Pius XII, Munificentissimus Deus 44). Pius XII affirmed in this dogma of the Assumption of Mary, the elevation of Mary’s body to heavenly glory. We celebrate today the moment at which Mary was “taken up body and soul into heavenly glory, when her earthly life was over, and exalted by the Lord as Queen over all things” (Lumen Gentium 59). 

The Catechism of the Catholic Church tells us that “the Assumption of the Blessed Virgin is a singular participation in her Son’s Resurrection and an anticipation of the resurrection of other Christians” (CCC 966).

And so we spend these days with Mom, these final months of life before Life with joy in our hearts, yes mingled with the sorrow of knowing she won’t be with us, but with transparent and joyful gratitude. She has already received the Anointing of the Sick and the Apostolic Blessing at a point in which she seemed to be approaching the end. Now even as we cherish the beauties of creation on this earth, we know Mom is ready for eternity. Even as we enjoy those precious moments and share those selfies with her that we’ll keep forever, we remember that this life is but a preparation for eternity. Mary who has gone before us, body and soul, reminds us of this particularly on the Feast of the Assumption. There in heaven, the Mother of Jesus and our mother enjoys forever the beatific vision that is our hope, the hope of all Christians. What Mary now enjoys in heaven is promised to each of us:

Christ has been raised from the dead, the first fruits of those who have fallen asleep. For since death came through man, the resurrection of the dead came also through man. For just as in Adam all die, so too in Christ shall all be brought to life, but each one in proper order: Christ the first fruits; then, at his coming, those who belong to Christ.” (Colossians 15:20-23)

According to Pope Benedict XVI: 

“By contemplating Mary in heavenly glory, we understand that the earth is not the definitive homeland for us either, and that if we live with our gaze fixed on eternal goods we will one day share in this same glory and the earth will become more beautiful.

“Consequently, we must not lose our serenity and peace even amid the thousands of daily difficulties. The luminous sign of Our Lady taken up into Heaven shines out even more brightly when sad shadows of suffering and violence seem to loom on the horizon.

“We may be sure of it: from on high, Mary follows our footsteps with gentle concern, dispels the gloom in moments of darkness and distress, reassures us with her motherly hand” (Benedict XVI, General Audience, August 16, 2006).

If you are accompanying a loved one or friend in the last months or years of their life, or if you yourself are soon to enter your eternal home, slip your hand into Mary’s hand. Make beautiful memories during these days, cherish all the blessings you have on this earth, and also keep your mind and heart lifted high. Mary is your hope, the promise of a Life after this one, a Life that will never end, a Life of eternal joy. As you cherish the moments you have here, prepare for the eternal and unending forever that is our final destination, where Mary awaits to receive you, her child. 

Mary our Hope, assumed into heaven, pray for us. 

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Mi madre está en las etapas finales de Alzheimers. En el hermoso clima de verano de este año, ella y mi papá han pasado un par de horas cada tarde sentados afuera en el hermoso jardín donde viven. Escuchar a los pájaros, ver jugar a las ardillas y disfrutar de las flores y los árboles siempre ha sido una forma bendecida para mamá de pasar sus momentos relejados, particularmente en estos últimos quince años. Estoy tan agradecida con Dios que mis padres hayan tenido juntos este último año tan especial.

Aunque toda la familia ha encontrado un ritmo nuevo y bendecido de estar con mi mamá y rodearla de amor y experiencias de belleza que le son familiares en esta tierra, todos sabemos que lo más probable es que este será el último verano que tendremos este regalo.

Encuentro mi consuelo en la Fiesta de María que celebramos hoy, la Asunción de María al cielo. La oración colecta para la Misa de hoy eleva nuestras mentes y nuestros corazones:

Oh Dios, que, mirando la humildad de la Santísima Virgen María,
la elevó a esta gracia,
que tu Hijo Unigénito nació de ella según la carne
y que ella fue coronada hoy con gloria incomparable,
conceda a través de sus oraciones,
que, salvados por el misterio de tu redención,
merezcamos ser exaltados por ti en lo alto.

El cielo es el objetivo final.

Incluso mientras disfrutamos con mi mamá estos preciosos momentos en la belleza de la naturaleza, la gloria de la creación, recuerdo que el cielo es la meta final. Desde el momento de su gloriosa resurrección de entre los muertos, Jesús ha estado elevando nuestros corazones, elevándolos por encima de esta tierra, por encima de este lugar de exilio, por encima de este valle de lágrimas. Se levantó de entre los muertos y ascendió al cielo. El Espíritu descendió sobre los apóstoles en el Cenáculo. Y hoy celebramos la asunción de María al cielo.

En este día celebramos a la Inmaculada Madre de Dios, la siempre Virgen María, que después de cumplir el curso de su vida terrena, fue asunta en cuerpo y alma a la gloria celestial (Pío XII, Munificentissimus Deus 44). Pío XII afirmó en este dogma de la Asunción de María, la elevación del cuerpo de María a la gloria celestial. Celebramos hoy el momento en que María fue “elevada en cuerpo y alma a la gloria celestial, acabada su vida terrena, y exaltada por el Señor como Reina sobre todas las cosas” (Lumen Gentium 59).

El Catecismo de la Iglesia Católica nos dice que “la Asunción de la Santísima Virgen es una participación singular en la Resurrección de su Hijo y una anticipación de la resurrección de los demás cristianos” (CCC 966).

Y así pasamos estos días con Mamá, estos últimos meses de vida, antes de la vida eterna, sí mezclada con la tristeza de saber que no estará con nosotros, pero con transparente y gozosa gratitud. Ya ha recibido la Unción de los Enfermos y la Bendición Apostólica en un punto en el que parecía estar llegando al final. Ahora, aunque apreciamos las bellezas de la creación en esta tierra, sabemos que mamá está lista para la eternidad. Incluso mientras disfrutamos de esos preciosos momentos y compartimos esas selfies con ella que guardaremos para siempre, recordamos que esta vida no es más que una preparación para la eternidad. María, que nos ha precedido en cuerpo y alma, nos lo recuerda especialmente en la fiesta de la Asunción. Allí en el cielo, la Madre de Jesús y la madre nuestra, goza para siempre de la visión beatífica que es nuestra esperanza, la esperanza de todos los cristianos. Lo que María disfruta ahora en el cielo se nos promete a cada uno de nosotros:

“Cristo ha resucitado de entre los muertos, las primicias de los que durmieron. Porque por cuanto la muerte entró por el hombre, también por el hombre vino la resurrección de los muertos. Porque así como en Adán todos mueren, así también en Cristo todos serán vivificados, pero cada uno en su debido orden: Cristo, las primicias; luego, en su venida, los que son de Cristo.” (Colosenses 15:20-23)

Según el Papa Benedicto XVI:

“Al contemplar a María en la gloria celestial, comprendemos que la tierra tampoco es la patria definitiva para nosotros, y que si vivimos con la mirada puesta en los bienes eternos, un día compartiremos esta misma gloria y la tierra se hará más hermosa.

“En consecuencia, no debemos perder la serenidad y la paz, incluso en medio de las miles de dificultades diarias. El signo luminoso de Nuestra Señora llevada al Cielo resplandece aún más cuando las tristes sombras del sufrimiento y de la violencia parecen asomar en el horizonte.

“Podemos estar seguros: desde lo alto, María sigue nuestros pasos con dulce solicitud, disipa las tinieblas en los momentos de oscuridad y angustia, nos tranquiliza con su mano materna” (Benedicto XVI, Audiencia general, 16 de agosto de 2006).

Si estás acompañando a un ser querido o amigo en los últimos meses o años de su vida, o si tú mismo vas a entrar pronto al hogar eterno, desliza tu mano en la mano de María. Crea hermosos recuerdos durante estos días, valora todas las bendiciones que tienes en esta tierra y también mantén tu mente y tu corazón elevados. María es vuestra esperanza, la promesa de una Vida después de ésta, una Vida que nunca tendrá fin, una Vida de eterna alegría. Mientras valoras los momentos que tienes aquí, prepárate para el eterno e interminable para siempre que es nuestro destino final, donde María te espera para recibirte, su hijo.

María, Esperanza nuestra, asunta al cielo, ruega por nosotros.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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God Is Longing For Your Heart / Dios Anhela Tu Corazón

To the words that begin our first reading at Mass today… “Vanity of vanities, says Qoheleth, vanity of vanities!  All things are vanity!” …let us add these words of St. John of the Cross: “To be perfectly united to God by love and will, the soul must first be cleansed of all appetites of the will, even the smallest” (Ascent of Mount Carmel). 

In the language of St John of the Cross, the word “appetites” refers to disordered inclinations or affections for oneself or creatures, we could say the “vanities of the world,” tendencies which are more or less contrary to God’s will. 

In talking about the value of Ignatian Spirituality for leadership in his book Heroic Leadership, Chris Lowney talks about his being driven by the “I-want-it-so-badly” virus, a type of a modern formulation of the “vanity of vanities” of Qoheleth. Lowney shares how he so wanted to get to the top of the company, to be wealthy, recognized, have the best house and the most exciting life. He wanted it so badly that it seemed it must be right precisely because he wanted it so badly. 

Sound familiar? 

How subtle are the deceptions of the evil one. This absolute certainty that God is on our side might be a delusion. Often it is one of the signs that we are after things that fall under the category of “vanity of vanities.” Maybe it is not God’s design for us that we have the things we so badly desire, but only an “ego itch” actually leading us astray as we chase after our vanities and vainglory. “Disordered inclinations and affections for oneself or creatures.” 

In the second reading today, St. Paul in his letter to the Colossians teaches us simply, clearly, leaving us no wiggle room to justify collecting our vanities here on earth: “Brothers and sisters:

If you were raised with Christ, seek what is above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Think of what is above, not of what is on earth.”

And lest we think that these words are some fantasy or imaginative contemplation of Christ in heaven, Paul clearly lays out in no-nonsense and practical terms what this means for us here on earth: “Put to death, then, the parts of you that are earthly: immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and the greed that is idolatry. Stop lying to one another, since you have taken off the old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed, for knowledge,

in the image of its creator.”

So, brothers and sisters, cherish these words today, these words of God who is longing for your heart, “put on the new self.” Indeed, my friends, God says to us all, “If today you hear [my] voice, harden not your hearts.”

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Nuestra Primera Lectura de la Misa de hoy empieza con: “Vanidad de vanidades, dice Qohelet, vanidad de vanidades! ¡Todas las cosas son vanidad!” y a estas palabras añadamos las de San Juan de la Cruz: “Para estar perfectamente unida a Dios por el amor y la voluntad, el alma debe primero estar limpia de todos los apetitos de la voluntad, incluso los más pequeños” (Subida al Monte Carmelo).

En el lenguaje de San Juan de la Cruz, la palabra “apetitos” se refiere a las inclinaciones o afectos desordenados hacia uno mismo o hacia las criaturas, podríamos decir las “vanidades del mundo”, tendencias más o menos contrarias a la voluntad de Dios.

Al hablar sobre el valor de la espiritualidad ignaciana acerca del liderazgo en su libro Heroic Leadership (Liderazgo Heroico), Chris Lowney habla de que lo impulsa el virus “Lo quiero tanto”, un tipo de formulación moderna del “vanidad de vanidades” de Qohelet. Lowney comparte cómo deseaba tanto llegar al puesto más alto de la empresa, ser rico, reconocido, tener la mejor casa y la vida más emocionante. Lo deseaba tanto que parecía que debía estar bien precisamente porque lo deseaba tanto.

¿Suena familiar?

Cuán sutiles son los engaños del maligno. Esta certeza absoluta de que Dios está de nuestro lado puede ser una ilusión. A menudo es una de las señales de que buscamos cosas que entran en la categoría de “vanidad de vanidades”. Tal vez no sea el diseño de Dios para nosotros que tengamos las cosas que tanto deseamos, sino solo una “comezón del ego” que en realidad nos lleva por mal camino mientras perseguimos nuestras vanidades y vanagloria. “Inclinaciones y afectos desordenados hacia uno mismo o hacia las criaturas”.

En la Segunda Lectura de hoy, San Pablo en su carta a los Colosenses nos enseña de manera sencilla, clara, y sin dejarnos margen de maniobra para justificar recoger nuestras vanidades aquí en la tierra: “Hermanos y hermanas: Si han resucitado con Cristo, busquen lo de arriba, donde está Cristo sentado a la diestra de Dios. Piensen en lo de arriba, no en lo de la tierra”.

Y para que no pensemos que estas palabras son una fantasía o una contemplación imaginativa de Cristo en el cielo, Pablo expone claramente en términos prácticos y serios lo que esto significa para nosotros aquí en la tierra: “Hagan morir, pues, las partes de usted que son terrenales: la inmoralidad, la impureza, las pasiones, los malos deseos y la codicia que es idolatría. Dejen de mentirse unos a otros, ya que se hayan despojado del viejo hombre con sus prácticas y se han revestido del nuevo hombre, que se va renovando, para el conocimiento,a la imagen de su creador.”

Entonces, hermanos y hermanas, atesoren estas palabras hoy, estas palabras de Dios que anhela tu corazón, “vestíos del nuevo yo”. De hecho, mis amigos, Dios nos dice a todos: “Si hoy escuchan [mi] voz, no endurezcan su corazón”.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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Have You Never Read This? / ¿Nunca has Leído Esto?

“Have you never read this?” There is a touch of irony in Jesus’ words in today’s Gospel as he responded to the Pharisees who rebuked his disciples for plucking grain on the Sabbath. Jesus began his response to the Pharisees with the words “Have you never read this?” precisely because these leaders prided themselves upon their knowledge of the Scriptures.

“Have you never read this?” They had read, Jesus intimated, but had not read to understand. They had not read with soft hearts. They, perhaps unconsciously, had read to verify their own positions, their already determined conclusions. They had understood, or misunderstood, the Word of the Lord to confirm their own word to their own benefit.

How many times Jesus could say these words to me, “Kathryn, have you never read this? Have you not yet understood my heart? Are you still so undiscerning of what truly gives me joy, what pleases me the most?”

I remember as a young sister that being on time for meals, which meant arriving early and waiting prayerfully to say the meal blessing, was an important custom and expectation in our community. There are many values enshrined in this practice: respect for the community, obedience to the will of God as indicated by the schedule, taking one’s rest prayerfully. However, one day on my way to dinner I noticed a sister forty years my senior unloading a car by herself. I hesitated because to assist her would mean that I would arrive late to dinner. Making a quick decision, I stopped to assist her. There were two goods, two values at stake: punctual obedience and generous service. I chose the value of generous service at that moment, regardless of what others would think of my walking in late to dinner. 

This certainly was a decision of little consequence, and doubtless you have been faced with many situations of more grave import in your own life. But this Gospel helps us sift through our options more selflessly, honestly, obediently.

Let’s look more closely at the Gospel. The Pharisees objected to Jesus that his disciples by plucking the grain were “working,” a kind of reaping, and therefore it should be avoided as it was considered working on the sabbath day. Jesus responded to the Pharisees: Have you not read how David and his followers went to the tabernacle at Nob near Jerusalem and asked for bread from the priests there. There was no bread available there except for the twelve old loaves of showbread which were prescribed to be eaten only by the priests. The priests, in mercy, gave this bread to the hungry men, as Jesus himself in his mercy did not stop his disciples from plucking the grain along the side of the path. And have you not read, Jesus continues, that on the Sabbath, the busiest day of the week for the priests, they themselves break the rules of the Sabbath in order to carry out the functions of worship in the Temple. The commandment of God to keep holy the Sabbath didn’t refer to all work universally, Jesus intimated, but work for worldly gain. 

“I desire mercy, not sacrifice,” Jesus says at the end of this reading. In this Gospel passage today it is clear that Jesus was not using this phrase to justify behavior that was wrong. Instead he used Scripture itself to show the Pharisees how their understanding of the Law in its more complex and cohesive sense was inadequate. He called them to a greater and more inward sense and assimilation of the heart of the Law not to a lesser one. And, indeed, he called his own disciples to such higher standards in the Sermon on the Mount. “You have heard it said…but I say to you.” 

Jesus makes it clear that he didn’t come to relax the commandments of the Law, to negate them in favor of something new that would make it easier for his disciples. Rather, he pointed out on a number of occasions that the teachers of the Law had missed the point. And that is what we need to be attentive to. Often the phrase “it is mercy God desires, not sacrifice” is thrown out in a conversation to justify not keeping God’s law. God understands and has mercy. He doesn’t really expect us to keep his law. After all, he is so merciful….  So let’s not expect someone to obey the call to discipleship with all its consequences. That clearly is not what God in his mercy expects of us. That, however, is clearly not what Jesus was saying in the context of this Gospel passage. Jesus loved each one who came to him, with great patience and mercy, and at the same time invited them to become “perfect just as your heavenly Father is perfect” (Mt 5:48).

“Have you never read this?” Or if you have, have you missed the point? We don’t want to miss the point. Going back to my example above, communion of life and charity is the point of community life. At that moment, communion and charity was greater served by my stopping to help a sister unload a car than by my walking past her to be with my sisters at prayer before the meal. Though I “broke,” so to speak, one rule, I lived it inwardly in my service to the sister who needed assistance. If instead, I had stopped to offer assistance because I thought it was stupid to have to keep rules and I had been looking for a chance to act as a free agent and to cherish my own self-importance or greater enlightenment, even if I had justified my action with the words of the Lord himself: “it is mercy I desire and not sacrifice,” I would have missed the point. I would have misused the words of Wisdom itself to justify my own selfish autonomy and resistance to authority. And in the end, it would be I myself who would have suffered from my own self-will, my hardened positions, even if justified by the words of the Lord himself.

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“¿Nunca has leído esto?” Hubo un poco de ironía en las palabras de Jesús en el Evangelio de hoy cuando respondió a los fariseos que reprendieron a sus discípulos por arrancar el grano en sábado. Jesús comenzó su respuesta a los fariseos con las palabras “¿Nunca han leído esto?” precisamente porque estos líderes se enorgullecían de su conocimiento de las Escrituras.

“¿Nunca has leído esto?” Habían leído, insinuó Jesús, pero no habían leído para entender. No habían leído con corazones abiertos. Ellos, quizás inconscientemente, habían leído para justificar sus propias posiciones, sus conclusiones ya determinadas. Habían entendido, o malinterpretado, la Palabra del Señor para confirmar su propia palabra para su propio beneficio.

¿Cuántas veces Jesús podría decirme estas palabras, “Kathryn, nunca has leído esto? ¿Aún no has entendido mi corazón? ¿Sigues con tan poco discernimiento de lo que realmente me da alegría, lo que más me agrada?

Cuando era una hermana joven recuerdo lo que significaba llegar a tiempo para las comidas, llegar temprano y esperar en oración para bendecir de la comida, era una costumbre y expectativa importante en nuestra comunidad. Son muchos los valores incluidos en esta práctica: el respeto a la comunidad, la obediencia a la voluntad de Dios indicada en el horario, y incluyendo la oración en tiempos de descanso.

Sin embargo, un día, en camino a la cena, noté que una hermana cuarenta años mayor que yo estaba descargando un vehículo sola. Dudé porque ayudarla significaría que llegaría tarde a la cena. Tomando una decisión rápida, me detuve para ayudarla. Estaban en juego dos bienes, dos valores: la obediencia puntual y el servicio generoso. Elegí el valor del servicio generoso en ese momento, independientemente de lo que otros pensaran de mi al llegar tarde a la cena.

Esta fue ciertamente una decisión de poca importancia, y sin duda han enfrentado a muchas situaciones de mayor importancia en sus propias vidas. Pero este Evangelio nos ayuda a examinar nuestras opciones de manera más desinteresada, honesta y obediente.

Miremos más de cerca al Evangelio. Los fariseos se opusieron que los discípulos de Jesús estaban “trabajando” al arrancar el grano, una especie de siega, y por lo tanto debería evitarlo ya que se consideraba trabajar en el día de reposo. Jesús respondió a los fariseos: ¿No han leído cómo David y sus seguidores fueron al tabernáculo de Nob, cerca de Jerusalén, y pidieron pan a los sacerdotes que estaban allí? No había pan disponible, excepto los doce panes viejos de muestra que deberían ser comidos solo por los sacerdotes. Los sacerdotes, en su misericordia, dieron este pan a los hambrientos, como el mismo Jesús en su misericordia no impidió que sus discípulos arrancaran el grano al borde del camino. Y no han leído, sigue Jesús, que el sábado, el día más ocupado de la semana para los sacerdotes, ellos mismos quebrantan las reglas del sábado para cumplir las funciones de culto en el Templo. Jesús dio a entender que el mandamiento de Dios de santificar el sábado no se refería a todo el trabajo universalmente, sino al trabajo para obtener ganancias mundanas.

“Deseo la misericordia, no el sacrificio”, dice Jesús al final de esta lectura. En este pasaje del Evangelio de hoy, está claro que Jesús no estaba usando esta frase para justificar un comportamiento mala. En cambio, usó las mismas Escrituras para mostrar a los fariseos cómo su comprensión de la Ley, en su sentido más complejo y cohesivo, era inadecuada. Los llamó a asimilar la Ley con un sentido del corazón mayor y más interior. Y, de hecho, llamó a sus propios discípulos a estándares muy elevados en el Sermón del Monte. “Han oído decir… pero yo les digo”.

Jesús deja claro que no vino a suavizar los mandamientos de la Ley, a negarlos en favor de algo nuevo que facilitara las cosas a sus discípulos. Más bien, señaló en varias ocasiones que los maestros de la Ley no habían entendido. Debemos estar atentos a eso. A menudo, la frase “Dios desea la misericordia, no el sacrificio” se usa en una conversación para justificar no guardar la ley de Dios. Dios entiende y tiene misericordia. Él realmente no espera que guardemos su ley. Después de todo, él es tan misericordioso… Así que no esperemos que alguien obedezca el llamado al discipulado con todas sus consecuencias. Eso claramente no es lo que Dios en su misericordia espera de nosotros. Sin embargo, eso claramente no es lo que Jesús quería decir en el contexto de este pasaje del Evangelio. Jesús amaba con gran paciencia y misericordia a cada uno de los que acudían a él, y al mismo tiempo los invitaba a ser “perfectos como su Padre celestial es perfecto” (Mt 5,48).

“¿Nunca has leído esto?” O si lo has leído, ¿has perdido el punto? No queremos perder el punto. Volviendo al ejemplo anterior, la comunión de vida y la caridad es el propósito de la vida comunitaria. En ese momento, era mejor comunión y caridad detenerme a ayudar a una hermana a descargar un vehículo que pasar de largo para estar con mis hermanas en oración antes de la comida. Aunque “rompí”, por así decirlo, una regla, la viví interiormente en mi servicio a la hermana que necesitaba ayuda. Si, en cambio, me hubiera detenido a ofrecer ayuda porque pensé que era estúpido tener que seguir las reglas y hubiera estado buscando una oportunidad de actuar como un agente libre y apreciar mi propia importancia personal o una mayor iluminación, incluso si tenía justificado mi acción con las palabras del mismo Señor: “deseo la misericordia, no el sacrificio”, me habría equivocado. Habría abusado de las palabras de la Sabiduría misma para justificar mi propia autonomía egoísta y mi resistencia a la autoridad. Y al final, sería yo mismo quien habría sufrido por mi propia voluntad, mis posiciones endurecidas, incluso si estuvieran justificadas por las palabras del mismo Señor.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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We Are So Important To The Divine Physician

Today’s Gospel reading is from the beginning of Chapter 9 of the Gospel of Matthew. Let’s take two steps back and get some perspective on where this healing narrative falls in the development of Matthew’s Gospel.

We know that Matthew gives us the beautiful Sermon on the Mount in Chapters 5 and 7 of his Gospel. Beginning in Chapter 8 and carrying through Chapter 9 we are caught up in the love of the heart of the Divine Physician. 

First, he healed a man with leprosy: “If you are willing you can make me clean.” “I am willing, be clean!” Jesus said (cf. vs. 1-2).

Next the Divine Physician heals the servant of the centurion from afar because of the centurion’s great faith (vs. 5-13).

After the healing of Peter’s mother-in-law, a great crowd descended on the house begging Jesus to drive out evil spirits and heal the sick. Jesus healed all who came to him. Then he got into a boat with his disciples, and he calmed a great storm. Their hearts were filled with awe. Jesus is Master of the powers of nature, of evil, and of sickness (vs. 14-16, 23-27).

Chapter 8 ends with Jesus healing two men possessed by demons, sending them into a large herd of pigs. Then we are told that the whole village came out to see what was going on and pleaded with him to leave. The joy and awe that has surrounded Jesus’ healing is met here with rejection and expulsion (vs. 28-34),

 So Jesus entered a boat to cross to the other side. 

At this point we come to today’s Gospel in which Jesus forgives a paralytic of his sins and then heals him, “Rise, pick up your stretcher, and go home.”  The crowds are in awe, but the scribes accuse him of blaspheming. It is becoming more and more clear that we must make a choice regarding Jesus. 

Tomorrow’s Gospel will be the calling of a tax collector, a sinner, Matthew. Tax collectors worked for the foreigners who ruled over the Jews, so this made them traitors. They weren’t paid a wage by the Romans, but were expected to take extra money and keep some for themselves. They were hated and considered sinners. And yet this one sinner “got up and followed” Jesus immediately when he said to him, “Follow me.” We then see Jesus entering into the community of tax collectors and sinners, eating with them, because “the sick” “need a physician” (Mt 9:9-13).

The story of the paralytic should wake us up to the decision we each need to make. Where is it that you need forgiveness? What has paralyzed you? Are your limbs lifeless because you have used them in your own pursuits rather than the will of God? Sin is more than just a failing. In little ways, or in grave, sin distances us from God. Sin makes us spiritually weak. We are so important to God, so dear and precious to the Father, that he sent his Son to heal us. Jesus came to call us out of all that holds us back from giving ourselves completely and in trust to God. The Son of God enters into communion with us, the community of sinners, and he says, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and be healed.” And then he says, “Follow me.”

Where is Jesus today asking you to follow him?

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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You Play A Vital Role In The Story Of Salvation

“What then will this child be?” How many parents, marveling at the mystery of their newborn nestled in their arms have asked the same question. “What will this child be?”

We are certain that God has a plan for great people who populate the pages of Scripture and have an important part to play in the story of salvation. We can think of Moses, and Jeremiah, and Peter, and Mary, and Paul. We can imagine the divine plan prepared for them which unfolded day by day in their life. When we read the narrative of their response to God who called them for a specific purpose, we might be a little bit in awe of how God used them and how clearly he loved them. Maybe even a bit jealous. “That could never be me.”

Today is the feast of one of these “greats” of salvation history: the birth of John the Baptist. The mystery and the miracles that surrounded his birth indicate how important he was as a hinge between the Old Testament prophets and the arrival of the Messiah. The Baptist’s austere life and courageous preaching when he became an adult confirm the divine predilection God had for this child.

He truly could say with the words of the Responsorial Psalm today:

Truly you have formed my inmost being;
            you knit me in my mother’s womb.
I give you thanks that I am fearfully, wonderfully made;
            wonderful are your works.
My soul also you knew full well;
            nor was my frame unknown to you
When I was made in secret,
            when I was fashioned in the depths of the earth.

These words of the Psalm came spontaneously to my mind one difficult yet amazing day 40 years ago. I remember it so clearly. I was sitting on the side of my bed in the hospital after having suffered a stroke. On that day, I was finally able to stand up with the help of two of the nurses. How marvelous! How amazing is the human body! We are truly “fearfully, wonderfully made,” and how “wonderful are your works,” O God. Look, today I can stand!

Whether we are the greatest prophet who ever lived as was John the Baptist, or someone sitting on the side of a hospital bed struggling to stand up for the first time in a week, God has a plan for our life. 

Remember, you are important to God and play a vital role in the story of salvation. 

In your mother’s womb God loved you more than your own parents. He created you as a unique expression of his image and his glory.

Surely, the hand of the Lord was with you, and he continues to be with you each day of your life. As the courageous and difficult life of St. John the Baptist reveals, in both happy times and in paths filled with shadows, on mountain tops and in the deepest of valleys, you are fulfilling the very special purpose for which you alone were created. It is only as we wander through these ups and downs of life, faithful to allowing God to have his way with us, that we discover truly who we were made to be.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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Now Heaven Is Present On The Earth

The Solemnity of the Ascension can be eclipsed for most of us by the Resurrection, Good Friday, and Christmas. For me, the Ascension is a liturgical feast that draws me inward and upward. Pope Benedict stated in his homily for the Ascension in 2013: “Christ’s Ascension means that he no longer belongs to the world of corruption and death that conditions our life. It means that he belongs entirely to God. He, the Eternal Son, led our human existence into God’s presence, taking with him flesh and blood in a transfigured form.”

My human existence led into God’s presence as Jesus took with him flesh and blood in a transfigured form….

My human existence led into God’s presence…

My human existence…

St. Augustine said that although Jesus ascended to the Father alone, “we also ascend, because we are in him by grace.”

We are led by Christ into the new world of the resurrection, where all the members of his body are drawn upwards to the Father in heaven. 

The apostles, in the reading today, were still wondering when Jesus was going to restore the kingdom to Israel. His answer to them is that they “would receive power” when the Holy Spirit was given to them:

“You will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you, and you will be my witnesses” (Acts 1:8).

In other words, Jesus directs their attention to this “new world of his resurrection.” After being brought to the life by the Spirit, they were to set their minds and hearts on things above where Christ is, not on earthly things (cf. Col 3:1-2).

In the early Church the Christians placed the Christ of the Ascension in the dome of their Churches to remind them that Christ ascended to his Father in heaven and that he was returning. 

“Come, Lord Jesus!” 

In a world of turmoil and crisis in which so many are suffering unjustly and needlessly, we can pray daily, “Thy Kingdom come! Thy will be done on earth, as it is in heaven.” 

“Come, Lord Jesus!”

Perhaps we feel that we cannot effect the change the world so needs, but we can be that change. With our faith in Jesus Christ who is real, the strength of our belief in the kingdom present and among us in Christ who is close to us in our every need, we can experience how we are changed, how heaven is present on the earth and every sorrow, every closed door, every crisis is but a window to his drawing us with him to the Father, through the power of the Holy Spirit.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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You Have Been Called With A Purpose

The transition crisis from before the passion to the foundation wall of the holy city Jerusalem.

Here at the end of the beautiful month of May and near the end of the Easter Season, the difficult and heart-wrenching days of the Paschal Triduum and the suffering and betrayal of the Lord are in the mists of my memory. This reading, however, brings me back with joy to those sorrowful days. 

At the Last Supper we got a snapshot of the spiritual state of the apostles before the passion and death of their Master…before their dismal failure to stand with the One who was their Life. Peter boldly proclaimed at that Passover supper that he would die with Jesus, only a few hours later to declare he didn’t even know him. All of the Twelve wanted to be sure that they weren’t the one who would betray the Lord. “Is it I, Lord?” they each asked. 

As Jesus walked into the mystery of his salvific death, alone, abandoned by his chosen Twelve, they each learned what they were capable of doing without their Lord and Master. Nothing. They each in some way abandoned Jesus. Before, they had fought with each other to see who would be the greatest, who was the most important, and Peter had tried to convince Jesus that the cross and death in Jerusalem was really not a good idea for the Messiah. In those dark and fear-filled days after Jesus died on the cross something happened to each of them.

The Apostles learned existentially that they were completely dependent on Jesus. They needed him for absolutely everything. Without him they were nothing, like branches cut from the vine. For each of them it was a crisis, a turning point, a transformation as they painfully emerged into who they were truly to be in the Kingdom: the foundation stones of the holy city Jerusalem in heaven.

“The wall of the city had twelve courses of stones as its foundation, on which were inscribed the twelve names of the twelve apostles of the Lamb” (Rev 21:14).

Moments of failure, of change, of challenge…we all have them. They are stages in our life in which we are still who-we-were and not quite yet who-we-will-be. And this liminal stage of confusion and darkness is what makes these times in our life so painful. 

These transcendent crises come into my life on a regular basis. Sometimes the loss and confusion even last several years as I integrate who I was with who I am becoming, who I have been with who God has made me to be, my next step on the journey of my response to the call and grace of God. These are graced transitions.

If you are in one of these transformative crises in your life, take heart from the Twelve apostles. You may not be a stone in the foundation of the holy Jerusalem, and the Twelve certainly didn’t think they were during the 40 days after the resurrection when they remained fearfully hiding away. You have your own place in that holy city. You have been called with a purpose. Every event in your life has meaning. And no matter what you have come through or come from, God is working actively through every aspect of your daily life to keep moving you toward the fullness of what he has created you to be. Rejoice. Alleluia!

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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I’m Tired of Storms

I must admit that I am tired of storms. I’m worn out trying to find my life story—my Covid pandemic life story—reflected in the apostles’ experience of storms at sea. 

I’m exhausted trying to outsmart an invisible enemy. 

I’m finished for a while with helping people make sense of what has been senseless suffering in their lives for these past two years.

The global consequences of the pandemic are so overwhelming I want to just sit down and cry. I long for the former days that seem in misty memory to have been more carefree and happy.

So the words that attracted my attention in the Gospel reading in today’s liturgy were these: “the boat immediately arrived at the shore to which they were heading.”

The apostles wanted to take Jesus into their boat. They were prepared to take charge and figure out the next best thing to do. Oh, how much of my life I’ve spent doing precisely this. These past two years that have been not only pandemic-riddled but also have been years of great loss on different levels have finally worn me out. I certainly don’t know the next move and I’ve finally acknowledged that I certainly don’t have what it requires to take the situation in hand and plot a way forward.

If you feel this way, just a little, trust in the Lord who brought the boat immediately to the shore to which they were heading. Sometimes we get taken to places in our lives that we would never have gone on our own, places that we would never have chosen, that we still don’t entirely comprehend. Somehow through it all we are taken by God to a shore where we are safe, yet we don’t know how we got there, where we are to go, or how we are to get there. We simply realize that God himself did it for us because he loves us poor storm-weary children.

It is a place of trust and of magnificent wonder: God is taking us somewhere, and he is doing it on his own, surprising us with his power, surrounding us with his love. “Do not be afraid,” he says. “It is I.”

I want to finish this reflection with three lines that perfectly express my prayer in these days. They are from a poem by Marie Noël (The Hours: Prime) found in the book Born from the Gaze of God: The Tibhirine Journal of a Martyr Monk (1993-1996).

Father, carry my soul in its carefreeness
To where you want, and let it sleep in your hand
Without asking the meaning and the goal of the road.

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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The Liturgy of the Magnificent Easter Vigil

Holy Saturday…

A day of quiet and calm. A day of intimacy and hope.

A day when all creation sighed in exhaustion after witnessing the sorrowful and tragic events of Calvary the day before.

A day when the earth trembled as it held the sacred Body of the Savior as it lay in the silent darkness.

A day of waiting….

The liturgy on Holy Saturday, the magnificent Easter Vigil, teaches us the divine art of waiting. We wait in the dark around the Easter Fire, usually shivering in the early spring evening for the service to begin. We wait as the Paschal candle precedes us into a darkened church and our tiny candles gradually become a sea of lights punctuating the shadows. We wait for everyone to take their place before the lovely Exultet is proclaimed in song. And then finally we wait for the reading of the Gospel of the resurrection as the Liturgy of the Word “takes us by the hand” in the words of Benedict XVI and walks us through the whole trajectory of salvation history. If your parish proclaims all the readings for Holy Saturday Liturgy there will be seven Old Testament readings and one from the Epistles in the New Testament.

As these readings follow upon each other, one after another, I feel that in some way I take my place in the long centuries of creation waiting for redemption as I look through the “scrapbook” of memories and miracles, of suffering and assurance that is the heartbeat of the Liturgy of the Word of the Easter Vigil. Story after story is read from creation through the promise made to Abraham and the miraculous freeing of the Hebrew slaves as they raced across the path made by the Lord for them through the Red Sea, to the prophecies of how God has chosen Israel, making with them a covenant, inviting them to fidelity, through to God sorrowing over his unfaithful people to whom he promises a new heart and a new spirit. 

Every baptized person stands in this arc of salvation, this mysterious longing of the Father’s heart for our return to him. We are baptized into Christ’s death and rise with him.

In the Easter Vigil, the readings assure us with the unmistakable echoes of a Father’s heart: “I love you. All of this was for love of you. I have always stood by my covenanted people and I will do so forever. I will stand by you. Even if you walk away. Even if you are weak and wobbly in your love for me, I will love you. You do not need to be afraid.”

And lastly, the community breaks out with joy as we celebrate the Baptisms of those who have waited many months of preparation. I always feel more complete as we welcome them among us, each of us holding them spiritually to our hearts.

If you have never been to an Easter Vigil, someday give yourself that gift. Don’t wait any longer!

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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I Will Never Ever Forget You

In today’s First Reading, the Servant of the Lord is announcing freedom to the Jewish exiles in Babylonia: “In a time of favor I answer you, on the day of salvation I help you; and I have kept you and given you as a covenant to the people….”

There is no way to overstate the crisis the exile in Babylon was for God’s people. They had been deprived of their homeland and had been stripped of everything that had given them their identity. There on the banks of the streams of Babylon they must have wondered how God could truly have been God if he had let the Babylonians defeat them, desecrate the temple, and force them to leave the land that had been promised to their ancestors Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. Were they now forgotten by God? Would he ever remember them? Would he save them? Did God still love them? Could they ever trust the Lord again?

The conversations of the people of God in Babylon are similar to the conversations whispered in the homes where we’ve isolated far from our churches and from everything that had been “normal” about our life. We might have said with Zion: “The Lord has forsaken me, my Lord has forgotten me.”

Isn’t it too late now for God to show up, after loved ones have died, livelihoods lost, children affected by years of education interrupted? After millions across the globe have suffered indescribable loss. The Jewish people in Babylon must have wondered also at this prophecy spoken by Isaiah:

Thus says the LORD:

In a time of favor I answer you,
            on the day of salvation I help you;
            and I have kept you and given you as a covenant to the people,
To restore the land
            and allot the desolate heritages,
Saying to the prisoners: Come out!
To those in darkness: Show yourselves!
Along the ways they shall find pasture,
            on every bare height shall their pastures be.
They shall not hunger or thirst,
            nor shall the scorching wind or the sun strike them;
For he who pities them leads them
            and guides them beside springs of water.

As we one by one continue to reshape our lives, we might wonder why the Lord didn’t “comfort his people and show mercy to his afflicted” by stopping the pandemic in its tracks before the damage across the globe had been done.

Our lament is as sorrow-filled and pitiful as the songs sung by the exiles who hung up their harps, refusing to sing the songs of Zion in a foreign land.

I hear such kindness in the final words of this First Reading. God understands his people’s tears, their loss. He listens to the confusion and hurt of his people who, because of their infidelity to the Lord and their choices to align themselves with other nations instead of trusting in him, had been carried off into exile by these same nations. God doesn’t correct their theology with reminders about how good he is, how faithful, how ever present. Instead, he evokes the image of tender love that is at the very foundation of every human life, an image that means warmth, safety, nourishment, a generous life poured out that a child might live.

But Zion said, “The LORD has forsaken me; We say with them:  my Lord has forgotten me.”

Can a mother forget her infant,
            be without tenderness for the child of her womb?
Even should she forget,
            I will never forget you.

Take a deep breath, my friend, and allow yourself to share your true feelings and fears with God. Wail and rail if you must. Be honest with the Lord in every way. And then receive his arms that surround you with a mother’s love, this God who pours out his life and tenderness in absolute fidelity to us forever. Let these words wash over you again and again, “I will never forget you. Never. Ever. My child. I could never be without tenderness for you.”

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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In Your Hands Is My Destiny

“Command that these two sons of mine sit, one at your right and the other at your left, in your kingdom.”

The mother of the sons of Zebedee had figured out, perhaps, that there was a kingdom involved in being a disciple of this itinerant preacher Jesus. For though Jesus with his call to poverty of spirit, meekness and humility certainly didn’t act like the kings she knew, he nevertheless spoke often of the kingdom of God. 

Possibilities, prestige, power…. As any good mother looking out for the interests of her children, she took the opportunity in today’s Gospel reading to ask for places of honor for her two sons. 

The other request for a place in the kingdom of Jesus that comes to mind is the request made by the repentant thief recorded in the Gospel of Luke (23:42-43).

Then he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.” He replied to him, “Amen, I say to you, today you will be with me in Paradise.”

What is the difference between these two requests for a place in the kingdom? They clearly received two very different responses from Jesus.

The repentant thief speaks from a place of surrender, of petition, of awareness of his sin and his need. He turns to Jesus with the trust that is available to him at that most desperate moment of his life. He responds to the action of the Holy Spirit in the measure to which he is capable in this first encounter with his Savior. In a sense, we can say that he is more completely in the form of holiness which is Jesus himself, the form of obedient humble surrender:

Mary, the mother who stood beneath her Son as he died on the cross, no doubt heard this plea that broke from the heart of the repentant thief, and in her heart echoed her own words of obedient surrender uttered years earlier at the Annunciation, “Behold, I am the handmaid of the Lord. May it be done to me according to your word” (Luke 1:38), and at the wedding feast of Cana: “They have no wine,” “Do whatever he tells you” (John 2:4-5). 

The Kingdom of God is received, it is surrendered to, it is entered into by one’s complete alignment with God’s will for oneself. We can prepare ourselves, but we do this only by fertilizing the soil of our hearts through the living of the Beatitudes. 

This is why it makes sense that Jesus asks the sons of Zebedee if they are ready to drink the chalice he was to drink. It was a matter, he was saying, of moving downward and pouring out one’s life for others. Then Jesus stated that he himself didn’t have that power to give away these seats in the Kingdom. This was a decision that was the prerogative of the Father. Jesus himself in his very identity as Son deferred in all things, in all ways, to his Father in complete and obedient surrender. 

The request of the mother of the sons of Zebedee, and the desire of the two apostles themselves, did not correspond to the very being of Jesus as Son and so was impossible to grant.

We are called to serve, to be last, to give our lives for others, to trust that the One who holds in his hands our very lives and defines our destiny is faithful and can be trusted.

What places of honor might you be seeking? They may be as world-oriented as the request of the mother of the sons of Zebedee or they might be as spiritual as great holiness or a ministry that stands out and stands above the mundane work of others. In any case, the trap is often very subtle. This Lent come to your Savior with your need and your poverty and see where he himself wishes to lead you. 

“But my trust is in you, O LORD; I say, ‘You are my God.’ In your hands is my destiny” (from today’s Psalm).

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Sr. Kathryn J. HermesKathryn James Hermes, FSP, is the author of the newly released title: Reclaim Regret: How God Heals Life’s Disappointments, by Pauline Books and Media. An author and spiritual mentor, she offers spiritual accompaniment for the contemporary Christian’s journey towards spiritual growth and inner healing. She is the director of My Sisters, where people can find spiritual accompaniment from the Daughters of St. Paul on their journey. Website: www.touchingthesunrise.com Public Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/srkathrynhermes/ For monthly spiritual journaling guides, weekly podcasts and over 50 conferences and retreat programs join my Patreon community: https://www.patreon.com/srkathryn.

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