On this day, many years ago, my husband was brought into this world. Some 4,000 miles away, in a different country, speaking a different language, with different color skin and eyes and being brought up in a different culture, yet created to be my partner. God’s ways are mysterious and sometimes a long time coming, yet always SO GOOD. In our wildest imaginings, neither my husband or I would have thought it possible for us to meet. Logistics were clearly not in our favor and both of us had been searching for each other for over a decade. Time and space were both against us, but God can do anything and He showed us that in a powerful way.
As I was discerning my vocation over my young adulthood years, I started out as a lay consecrated woman studying Theology and Philosophy and doing missionary work. Over the course of these three and a half years, which were spent in Mexico, I became fluent in Spanish. When I discerned that this was not my life-long calling, I simultaneously understood that God was calling me to marriage. Yet I had it very clear that my vocation was not just to a particular state in life, but rather to a particular person. Once I finally met him, it made sense why God had me learn Spanish first!
Unfortunately, while I was waiting for him, I went through a period of restless desperation, wondering why it was taking so long. I began taking things into my own hands, seeking him out by going out with whoever was willing to flirt with me, even though I knew in my heart it wouldn’t lead to the altar. Today’s first reading warns against this behavior: “Take care, brothers and sisters, that none of you may have an evil and unfaithful heart…so that none of you may grow hardened by the deceit of sin.”
Thankfully, before I made one of the worst decisions of my life, Jesus granted me the grace to flee and move back into the path of grace. I called out for mercy and the words of today’s Gospel became real and true to me: “Moved with pity, he stretched out his hand, touched the leper, and said to him, “I do will it. Be made clean.” Less than five months later, God brought the man He wanted for me into my life.
We all have our own stories. We all have our own winding paths that go up and down and side to side. We have all sinned. And God wills each of us to be made clean. We simply have to ask for His forgiveness. His unfathomable love reaches out to us wherever we find ourselves. May we allow ourselves to be lifted up by His outstretched hand and cleansed by His love today.
En este día, hace muchos años, mi esposo vino a este mundo. A unas 4.000 millas de distancia, en un país diferente, hablando un idioma diferente, con un color de piel y ojos diferente y siendo criado en una cultura diferente, pero creado para ser mi compañero. Los caminos de Dios son misteriosos y a veces se demoran mucho, pero siempre son TAN BUENOS. En nuestras imaginaciones más locas, ni mi esposo ni yo hubiéramos pensado que sería posible conocernos. La logística claramente no estaba a nuestro favor y ambos habíamos estado buscándonos el uno al otro durante más de una década. El tiempo y el espacio estaban en nuestra contra, pero Dios puede hacer incluso lo que parece imposible y nos lo mostró de una forma poderosa.
Mientras estaba discerniendo mi vocación durante mis primeros años de adultez, comencé como una consagrada laica estudiando Teología y Filosofía y haciendo trabajo misionero. En el transcurso de estos tres años y medio, los cuales pasé en México, aprendí a hablar español con fluidez. Cuando discerní que ese no era mi llamado de toda la vida, entendí simultáneamente que Dios me estaba llamando al matrimonio. Sin embargo, tenía muy claro que mi vocación no solo era a un cierto estado civil, sino más bien era estar con una persona en particular. Una vez que finalmente lo conocí, ¡tenía sentido por qué Dios hizo que aprendiera español primero!
Desafortunadamente, mientras lo esperaba, pasé por un período de desesperación inquieta, preguntándome por qué estaba demorando tanto. Comencé a tomar las cosas en mis propias manos, buscándolo por doquier, saliendo con cualquier joven que estuviera dispuesto a coquetear conmigo, aunque sabía en mi corazón que eso no me llevaría al altar. La primera lectura de hoy advierte contra esta conducta: “Procuren, hermanos, que ninguno de ustedes tenga un corazón malo… para que ninguno de ustedes, seducido por el pecado, endurezca su corazón”.
Gracias a Dios, antes de tomar una de las peores decisiones de mi vida, Jesús me concedió la gracia de huir y regresar al camino de la gracia. Le supliqué Su misericordia y las palabras del Evangelio de hoy se hicieron reales y verdaderas para mí: “Jesús se compadeció de él, y extendiendo la mano, lo tocó y le dijo: ‘¡Sí quiero: sana!’” Menos de cinco meses después, Dios trajo al hombre que Él quería para mí a mi vida.
Todos tenemos nuestras propias historias. Todos tenemos nuestros propios caminos serpenteantes que suben y bajan y van de un lado a otro. Todos hemos pecado. Y Dios quiere que cada uno de nosotros quede limpio. Simplemente tenemos que pedirle perdón. Su amor insondable nos alcanza dondequiera que nos encontremos. Permitámonos ser levantados por Su mano extendida y purificados por Su amor hoy.
Tami Urcia is a midwestern gal from a large Catholic family. As a young adulthood she was a missionary in Mexico, where she studied theology and philosophy. After returning stateside bilingual, she gained a variety of work experience, traveled extensively and finished her Bachelor’s Degree at Brescia University. She loves organizing and simplifying things, watching her children play sports, deep conversations with close family and friends and finding unique ways to brighten others’ day with Christ’s love. She works full time at Diocesan in the Software Department and manages the Inspiration Daily reflections. She also is a guest blogger on CatholicMom.com and BlessedIsShe.net.
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